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Light From Darkness:





                              A Veterans journey and reflections on healing, reintegration,
                           life lessons and friendship through the art and science of welding.





            Text by Edouard H.R. Glück                         of other’s despite the social contract that governs civilized, non-
                                                               combatant environs. The responses and behavior of our newest
                                                                           generation of veterans can be unpredictable,
                                                                           and frightening especially to people who don’t
                                                                           understand the horrible by products of armed
                                                                           conflict, and the challenges that arise by proxy.
                                                                           Employers are almost always at the top of this list.

                                                                           For veterans who have returned, we sometimes
                                                                           think the only path back is to “re engage” in what
                                                                           we know and have experienced: adrenaline filled
                                                                           professions and activities marked by fast thinking
                                                                           on the edge with constant elements of danger
                                                                           and some cases the risk of serious bodily harm
                                                                           or death. Professions that allow us to be brash,
                                                                           rugged, empowered with a sense of responsibility
                                                                           and entitlement and above all unapologetic.
                                                                           Veterans know about  these things very well. On
                                                                           the battlefield these were some of the only traits
                                                                           encountered. This leads to my story and how I
                                                                           survived.

                                                               I attended Broward County, Florida Police Academy class 278 in
            The dark. This is a place that all of us as human beings have   April 2011 and knew before starting, had no business being a Police
            experienced at some point in our lives. Whether in a physical   Officer. At all. Years later, with the benefit and wisdom that only
            capacity like being stranded on the side of a desolate road at night,   comes from hindsight, the decision to do this was purely rooted in
            or mentally through the belief as a young child of “the man under my   the legitimate fear of unemployment and needing an adrenaline
            bed”, the loss of a friend, close relative, or job difficulties finding a   “fix” again. The fix that one’s ego screams for. I began my police
            way out of this darkness and the paralyzing fear and disappointment   training and did so 7 years into what will later be diagnosed as
            that almost always accompanies it can be a daunting task.  untreated combat related PTSD. I did whatever was necessary
                                                               within the scope of legality to portray myself as “stable” and
            For the last decade I have experienced and observed as veterans   “suitable for employment” in background investigations and
            of the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan have tried, worked, struggled   interviews. All of this with sometimes uncontrollable violent
            and sometimes failed with catastrophic consequences in their   outbursts and actions in my personal life that frightened the people
            attempts to reintegrate into a society and nation that many times   closest to me. I was fortunate enough to have exercised enough
            doesn’t understand the plight of our veterans, their needs; most   self-control, to never have ended up in prison because of these
            notably those who participated in direct armed combat. For veterans   behaviors. However, in police work this kind of “fight over flight”
            who have experienced this brand of darkness they know it well.   mentality is often masked as an excuse that is required to protect
            It is without remorse, compassion, and if untreated becomes an   yourself and society...so I tried to convince myself.
            unrelenting, permanent squatter in the home of your soul. Like an
            unruly uncle at Thanksgiving that everybody hopes will not behave   One of the most interesting phenomena that occurs when dealing
            poorly, or embarrass the family or others with his behavior, this   with veterans looking to rebuild and reintegrate professionally:
            darkness introduced itself on snowcapped, rocky mountain tops in   their interactions with those who are critical to the process.
            Afghanistan and the sewage filled streets and alleys of Iraq where   The individuals who are the decision makers. In my case, as the
            blood was spilled, friends maimed. Friends killed. In these places   recommendations started to pile up before putting in my packet,
            in the wake of those kinds of experiences, many veterans upon   already knowing a department was going to hire me, my gut told me
            returning home became permanently unconcerned with the opinions   that a few of my recommenders (and years later discovered my own


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